This week, I noticed how much you being YOU brings love, peace and happiness. You are a caring mother, wife and friend, and you strive to develop one on one relationships with each of our children. This is not something that could ever be replaced. Even if there are not many thank yous that come your way, the kids love the effort that you put into being involved with their lives.
This week was not completely smooth. We had a fight. It was dumb, I was running of very little sleep, longs days and less food than usual, and I overreacted. I appreciated your apology so much. I was feeling like I couldn't do anything right and when you told me that you were sorry, it really helped me feel validated and understood and I thank you for that. I had been developing in my mind arguments for why I was right and how you should be different, and as soon as you said "I'm sorry", all those frustrations melted away.
Poor Kaden also witnessed this argument and his tender spirit was so sensitive. You were incredible with him. You pulled him aside to assure him that we were just temporarily upset and it was not permanent. Then you made him know that he is a special part of the family and he is loved. You listened to his concerns and then brought reassurence and peace to his sweet heart.
You also have such calming affect on Jenna. This week I think she was feeling lonely, unappreciated, and vulnerable. You took the time to sit with her and just listen. You talked with her on the phone when you were not here, and you soothed her over analyzing thoughts. I realized over the past couple of weeks that my biggest fears are probably loosing one of our family members, being hunted by a jaguar, and Jenna entering the teen years. While I do think that your ability to avoid disaster and fight big cats may be limited, I feel peace about Jenna becoming a teen. You have developed a wonderful relationship with her and yo are such a vital part of her life that I feel that even the crazy hormones that have caused so much destruction and devastation throughout the world can be calmed. Jenna depends on you as a support and I hope you realize that you fill a role that no one else can. While I certainly enjoy my time and relationship with her, I fully recognize that there are some things she will not come to me for, and I cherish the the thought that she has you to turn to for those things.
One of the reasons I wanted to do this blog was to show you that even during weeks where it may seem that love, peace and happiness are lacking, you still bring it to our home.
I love you.
Brandon